i’m making some new commitments, one of which is to let myself be inspired. i think i have been scared of inspiration, even though there has been so much of it this last year, because i worry if give it the full attention i want to, i’ll end up not paying enough attention to those basic needs (like making rent), which i neglected while writing my first book.
i am putting the fear aside. i’m sure it’ll be right there waiting for me when i come back from kicking some ass.
first, i picked one day in the week to spend only on my own writing and reading. i can afford to do this not because i have shitloads of money (ha!) and don’t need to earn income every day, but because my writing is work, too. i chose a weekday so as not to slip into the false impression that writing is just a hobby i do on the weekends. it is part of my livelihood.
also, i am recommitting myself to my meditation practice. i am going to start with a hour a day. i can do half an hour in the morning and half an hour at night, or i can do one full hour sitting. until i am able to get to a proper 10-day vipassana course (which i’ll have to wait till Spring to do), i will practice on my own.
lastly, i am working on making tutoring/teaching my one and only job because just trying to juggle my calendar has been enough to give me a panic attack – not exactly conducive to staying focused on what’s really important to me.
other steps i’d like to take in the future to improve my focus and production: invest in a writing computer, which will be a different machine from the one i use for internet and everything else; forgo any reading and writing for money, which shrinks the amount of energy and time i have for my own reading and writing needs; find a writing group.
and speaking of inspiration, this artist has me awestruck. his blog is pretty neat, too.